Testimony: Journey of a lifetime
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My freshman year at Mount Holyoke College was an exciting time of rigorous study, new friendships, challenging adjustments, and unbelievable growth. Over twelve hundred miles away from home, I found myself seeking both comfort in the familiar but also joy in discovering who I was to become. Though I studied hard and partied equally so, I still made time to attend church either on campus or locally in town with a classmate. I noticed that something was missing, something I couldn’t define, but leaving me incomplete. Perhaps the experience of worship had changed or I had—or even a bit of both.
Then one Sunday, as the minister spoke metaphorically of finding one’s center, I suddenly realized that something was missing. What I longed for was not a vague pulpit description of what God is, but a concrete awareness of who God is in my life. And while I knew my center was Christ, I no longer felt his presence as near and tangible. My soul yearned for so much more. Intense and undeniable, I truly felt God working within me over the course of the proceeding months, asking me to let go and let him lead.
Soon after that, I was to discover the love of my life in a deep friendship that had begun earlier that fall with a Catholic sophomore at UMass Amherst. When I look back, it seems every detail of our meeting and courtship was just as it was intended to be. Neither of us was initially looking for a long-term relationship, but we each were honestly seeking someone who reflected the values we held dear. Reluctantly, he accepted that I was not ready to date but longed for his friendship. Through months of listening to one another tell of the faults of those we dated, and giving advice, we grew closer. John was waiting for me and loving me all the while. I couldn’t believe how blessed I was that God had planned it all! Though we frequently attended Mass together, for some time I still held back in telling him how God was moving me ever closer to conversion. With prayer and discernment so significant in my life, I was cautious and wanted to be certain that this was indeed where God was leading me to go.
Elizabeth Reardon is Director of Parish Ministries for St. Paul and Resurrection Parishes in Hingham, MA, and for many years was a radio host. Her blog is called Theology Is a Verb.